Depth of the spiral
I'm back.
I had forgotten about this blog, a little like I feel like I had forgotten about myself there for a while. Do people even blog anymore? Anyway, I'm back. To both.
Reading through this blog I realise I have basically talked about the same thing in different ways for many years: why yoga, meditation and nature is so important and what love, truth and balance really is.
These last few years has, as mentioned, been years of shadow work. Like a seed planted in the darkness of soil it's been nurturing and humbling. Yet painful and confusing.
It would be a lie to say I've lived in the highest discipline of physical health, as I know I'm capable of and benefit from, these last two years. Yet, as often seem to be the case in my life, I've needed to let go of control and let life do life. And often when life tells me to let go, it brings me way down there in the dark to fight for the transfromation of whatever lower vibrational samskaras (impressions) I might still possess. This whole life has been an never ending, massive transformation from lower to higher vibrations and there's no doubt that the biggest challenge in that transformation is to connect to the lower vibration before transforming it to something higher - without getting stuck in, or addicted to it.
But today, this week, this month, something feels different. As if a major debt has been paid off and it's time to act differently. Time to stop, settle, build and give. And it feels like I have so much to give I'm about to burst. Anywhere, everywhere where I could possibly be needed is where I want to be.
Now, looking around at my inner circle, I realise I'm surrounded by healers, yogis and yoginis, teachers, activists and incredible intelligent, nurturing and compassionate people. After all these years we're still together, still connected and there's so much work to be done. So many people who need support, so much nature to be restored. Suddenly, I have such incredible faith in the future and I feel lucky to be a woman on a mission.