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Where the honest feeling begins and ends

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I think one out of many spiritual obstacles is the tendency to glorify situations out of proportion. Now generally, I believe this is seen as a quite forgiving obstacle since it's associated with a state of optimism and gratefulness. Yet, if it's not possible to meet ups with the same stability as downs, it's not really stable, is it? Glorification is a unrealistic viewpoint and the consequences will naturally be unstable.

An example is this: You get a feeling, and in it's natural form, that feeling is simple and natural. However, something within - I want to say the mind, or the ego - starts noticing this beautiful, natural, simple, free flowing emotion and what happens is it starts to hook on to it. Let's say you’ve been exceptionally nice one day. You know, out of the ordinary in regards to your life. Is the ego (or mind) going to let that slip? Quite often not. "Look how good you are. You just did this and this and this... You're probably even better than..." bom. Lost. Judgements, delusional superiority, selfishness.

Anytime a simple, natural emotion gets "hooked" like this you’ll know you’re lost and disconnected. It doesn't matter if we glorify it, judge it, romanticize it, dislike it or victimize it. It's "hooked". It's "special". It's "unique". It's been taken out of the flow and made into something out of porportion. The process of acknowledging this can be tricky, since it's just as destructive to suppress a feeling as it is to glorify it and, in my experience, it takes a lot of self centerness and grounding to be able to determine where your honest feeling starts and where it ends. Trying to feel it fully and not more. I'd say it's similar to learning how to color within the lines of a coloring book as a child - the aim being to color it, but to do so in a way so the picture is represented for what it is.

In my experience, this glorification is negative for a few reasons. First, I don't like the stress it brings me. I can only assume that the stress originates from the fact that I'm floating away from "the truth", reality. Second, my subconscious mind reacts by signaling aversion to whatever concept I'm currently glorifying, probably to maintain a state of equilibrium.

So, as much as the concept of glorification needs to be accepted as something that just is, as all other things (since, otherwise, it would be "hooked"), it can't be denied that it's messing up the simple, natural, beautiful flow of life.

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